Knowing
- Leda Muscatello
- 3 days ago
- 2 min read
Instruction required:
no known history to provide guidance.
This tightrope is threaded with barbed wire
and thorns. I am bare;
my feet
my need
I will buy shoes that promote balance,
the illusion of poise
and a lock with a brass key.
I submit to an experimental study
on repression, submerging desire.
Or cast myself back
to a time when women wore corsets,
cinched tight.
Bone digs into flesh, trained
to not feel
to deny the inhale.
It’s just another thorn.
Feel the key cut into my palm;
refine my balance.
The very air
humid beneath my skirts.
A pilgrimage to Future
is my newest skill set.
Manifest force-field.
Seal myself into plexiglass.
A red light warning flashes harsh.
Caution, I have lost the will to attract
or retain. It all slips
through my synapses,
my fingers
my thighs.
Deny the source.
Cover clear walls with reminders,
with pictures of deserts
from a time without crosses.
When the aches presses
deep in my chest, my limbs become liquid,
pliant, as the barbs carve deep
each time my toes curl around the heavy wire.
I will not respond.
I know this is a test, a trick of light.
There is no place for longing
in this hellscape.
Further instruction required
because I stop paying attention,
sketch storm clouds in margines of notebooks
instead of training focus on something
I didn’t realize I needed
to know.
Required now to walk backward,
the key slick with sweat,
tinged with effort and desire.
The tightrope is so high.
My soles are bleeding.
It’s the only good thing to come of this.
I can feel the friction fade,
resistance slip, deliberate steady damp
slows my pace
threatens my grip.
I don’t look down because I know
exactly how far it is
to the ground.
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